I wish I knew how to manage my time better- I’m always doing things at the last minute. I have a 7 page essay for History due on Thursday, but I might be starting that on Wednesday night… x_X I honestly wish that at this current point in my life that I had grown up where my schooling and parents were more strict on me- I’m afraid I’ll grow up to be a hopeless bum…

School has really been stressing me out, but when I stop to think about it, it seems manageable, I just can’t bring myself to do it. I’ll have to learn eventually ;_;

I’ve really been into High-King’s “Destiny Love”! I can’t remember the last time I loved a song so much! I like it so much, I don’t want to cover it in fear of butchering it, but so want to cover it at the same time ;_;

For my birthday a few months ago, my friend gave me a cute present filled with little things inside. I just started using the nail polish she gave me- it’s not really a color, just clear (or tinted light, light pink) and sparkly. It’s just cute and fun and I like it! However, I was really into painting them (I don’t usually do) so I did several coats and even moved onto my toes. ^^; Procrastination…

I’m in the “higher level” at my school, and I really don’t want to be or think I should… I’m not that smart and my work ethics aren’t good. I’m really stressing out because I don’t know what to do with myself. I know I’m whining, but it’s really hard to explain.

I even re-watched the Daughter/Servant of Evil videos… I think it’s super interesting, and I sang the Len song and Aura will sing the Rin one- I’m excited! I want to do a duet, but maybe our voices clash too much…?

I can’t remember the last time I slept before 1 am! On weekdays when I get home from school I almost immediately take a nap until around 6 (for 2 hours?) and then try to function again. But still, I don’t go straight into my homework… I wish I had been raised as one of those kids whose parents would always nag them to do their homework. I don’t know; maybe I was but was also really rebellious. I feel rebellious now, too.

A year has gone by! 2009 had some of the most amazing memories I have ever had. I can’t thank all of the people I met enough for being so kind to me.

School has been quite stressful this year. All of my courses are in the more “difficult” category, and because of that, they had additional projects too. I don’t think I will have all of my courses this way next year, so I hope I can get through this year all right. My grades were very good in junior high, and last year, but this year I am not doing so good… I don’t have very good study or work habits, and I would like to learn to develop some!

I don’t know if I have written about it before, but in the summer of 2011, my friends and I plan to go to Japan. It’s always been a dream of mine to go there, and I think it will be so much fun with my friends! I also made friends who live there, so hopefully we can all have fun together! I want to improve my Japanese and accent to see how strangers react to my Japanese.

There is a list I made of foods I want to eat! I made it over time, mostly through manga and blogs and such. It’s really interesting, and I wonder if I will be able to taste them all! I feel like a glutton ^^;… But it’s okay, I won’t be able to have them (easily) back home!

When I go to Japan, I really want to go to a Hello! Project concert. I think concerts are so exciting when actually being there (the most intense was at a Billy Talent concert; a friend and I screamed to every song and stood for the whole thing xD) and I want to experience that! I’m not sure about information and stuff, do I have to be a fanclub member? It would be fun, but I don’t know how dedicated I could be as a fanclub member…

I really want to improve myself, but I’m really stubborn. ^^; However, when I try, I’m misunderstood at times and I feel like I’m looked down upon alot for lack of knowledge… I apologize for this disappointing post! ^^;

There are so many songs I want to sing… my computer has not been uploading anything at all these past few days and I really hope that will be fixed soon! I’m sorry if you are waiting for something from me! >_<

It’s quite late now, but I had such a fantastic summer. I would love to repeat it, but I have really sweet memories now, so that’s fine with me. I want to have more fun in the summer of 2011, though! xD

I’ve really been into the earlier Berryz Kobo songs, like Nanchuu Koi wo Yatteru YOU KNOW, Jiriri Kiteru and Happiness ~Koufuku Kangei~. I got an iPod Touch for Christmas, so when putting music on, I added those songs that I didn’t have before. It’s really different from my previous iPod- I had it for 3 years and it was a really reliable friend to me (though I had troubles with it this summer). I will still use it though! I think I won’t be bored at all on plane rides, though recently I have just been sleeping through them. If I compare it to the Touch, it’s not as cool or “great”, but there are aspects on my iPod 5th generation that I like better.

iPod Touch positives:
-volume buttons to press
-bigger screen to watch videos
-fun touch screen
-passcode
-speakers
-apps, internet and such
-cooler looking, lighter and slimmer than my previous one

iPod Touch negatives:
-lose precision when skipping through video and music
-can’t press a button to change songs
-turns on easily… I worry for the battery
-screen gets dirty from touching and annoying from glare to see dirt when watching videos
-can’t change songs when on internet
-when YouTube video is on,  you can’t change to anything else or you have to load from the beginning

That’s a list of pros and cons I can think of right now! Some are just preference from using my previous iPod for so long, but I really like my new iPod! Good night!

I did so much shopping today in preperation for the trip! That’s pretty bad since it’s in two days… But I’m still really happy with my purchases! I went out with my mother and we had a rocky start with the two of us, but it was all okay in the end. I think she was really tired… sorry mom ;_;!

My hair also has “real” bangs, more in your face than a funny little side bang. It’s been straightened and is moreso in my eye at the moment, but if I blowdry it, it can go off to the side better. I also learned a bit of haircare tips from the lady who cut my hair-  I had a really fun time conversing with her! Usually haircuts for me are really awkward because it’s just filled with silence… I want to go back there for future hair cuts, but it’s really far…

I am super excited to go, but I’m also really worried. Will my exchange partner like me? Will I get pick-pocketed? Will my luggage be lost? I still have to completely pack my suitcase, and I don’t even know if I have everything I need. This is really nerve wracking, and I won’t see my parents and family for 6 weeks. There is stuff I can buy when I am there though, thank goodness.

I have a lot of games for my Nintendo DS Lite, so I can try some of those out not only on the plane, but also at school if I have free time! I am excited- I stayed up last night trying a whole bunch of them out, haha… It made me really tired today… ^^;; I hope to get a really good sleep tonight! Tomorrow I’ll have to clean up… my… really messy room… My mom might get mad at me again. >_>;

I also am bringing one book (I bought 4 books with 2 other friends and we’re going to share them during the duration of the flight/stay there) and my iPod- I’ll be using them one at a time. I hope on the smaller flights that there will be outlets so I can use them on the plane without worrying about my battery dying- it’s really convenient! I have an iPod charger I bought specifically for travelling that can go into an outlet plug, but also USB; it can be used while it’s charging, unlike regular iPod connection wires into comptuers.

I still need an adapter for my plugs to work in Switzerland.. my father said he could borrow one from a friend (who has a daughter that goes to Europe a lot?), but I hope I can get it soon… it’s coming up so quickly! @w@

3 of my close friends will also be going on this exchange, so I am really excited I won’t have to entirely make new friends. And we’ll be good/closer to the others that we don’t know that well right now. We will be like family, haha!

Mm… I think I’m going to get my DS back from my younger cousin to do my daily Brain Age training. I did the 20 questions in the car, but it was really hot and uncomfortable, so my score was lower than usual. It’s really fun! I’m so glad I got it! I also have the flash focus game, but I played it really late so it counted as today. ^^;;

LOL wow no H!P talk?! I fail, I’m sorry!

I still owe so many lines for projects, I am SO SO SO sorry- first on my priority list are Aurora and jko, but I have been pushing those back for so long and I apologize (even though they won’t read this, but my conscience is a bit lighter…). I really doubt I can get it done, because tomorrow may very well be a family/packing kind of day because I leave the next day. I also haven’t mixed the b-side of Genki+Rabu’s anniversary single, Naichau Kamo, and it’s been mostly sitting on my computer. I just have to do some timing and volume rearranging, because I have everyone’s parts mixed in. But I WILL try to get that done by tomorrow!

I have some H!P fansubbed videos on my laptop, as well as some movies that I can watch. I ended up watching most of the Utaban ones before, which is a shame because they were really entertaining… I hope to think up some good movies tonight I can get before I leave!

I DID end up joining track! I went twice a week in February, but had to stop going in March because of my musical (which was AMAZING- i am so sad that it is over), but I went back for the first time in ages, and… it was SO hard! I think my legs still sting a bit right now (I went on Tuesday and today is Saturday)! It was really difficult, but I really felt so much better- after the hour and 30 minutes. I’m like… the newest and most out of shape person there, so I think people are nice to humor me, or expect me to drop out. I actually like it very much- it is fun and makes me feel better about myself, except when I run in front of people I really know…>_>;;

Today a friend and I went out to see the movie Coraline. It was really good! I didn’t really know what much of the plot was about (I didn’t know that Dakota Fanning’s character had blue hair even…), but I enjoyed it a lot! It was actually quite scary/thrilling/suspenseful at times, and I was surprised that it was a “children’s” movie. But that’s probably Tim Burton’s style for you. But all in all, I really liked it!

Before we went to the movie, we went to Dollarama to buy some stuff/movie snacks (we’re bad…T_T), but I ended up not having any during the movie. I think I’ve been watching too many movies recently as I am getting really sick of the taste of theatre popcorn and constantly have the stuff in my purse. I always drink Strawberry Fruitopia with it, which is so sweet, but carbonated stuff loses it’s fizz, and other stuff makes my teeth feel groww. Haha, maybe I should just bring a water bottle next time or something. So now I have some junk food in my purse- it kind of makes me feel a bit nauseated thinking about it…x_X;;

The Hannah Montana movie came out yesterday, but I won tickets to an advanced screening of the movie, so we saw it on Monday. It was actually really good! It wasn’t as cheesy as I thought it would be and silly as the TV show. It did have its too exaggerated moments, but I am glad that I saw it (though I would have seen it after anyways). I think that we were the oldest ones there that didn’t bring their children/siblings…^^;;

It seems that I’ve been watching a lot of “kid” movies recently. Over spring break, me and some friends went to see Monsters vs. Aliens 3D. It wasn’t bad, but I just couldn’t get into it that much. I didn’t particularly like Reese Witherspoon’s portrayal of Susan (the main character; Ginormica). And then Hannah Montana followed by Coraline. The friend I saw Coraline with asked me (jokingly? lol) to go out for another movie next week too…

Anyways, in the Hannah Montana movie, there is a song called the Hoedown Throwdown, and it has a fun little dance with it! There is a tutorial on YouTube on the steps, and I learned the 30 second snippet that they taught (which is the main dancing part). It’s really fun, and I was at a friend’s house on Thursday and we were (mostly) all trying to learn it. xD

I got a haircut over the spring break too! It’s shoulder length and layered, and I also got bangs cut (even though I half pinned them today). It actually reminded me of Sugaya Risako’s hair from the 2009 Winter Wonderful Hearts concert, but hers isn’t layered, and the bangs are different. But just the length and the say of straightening it, I suppose. At school recently I haven’t been straightening it that much because I’ve been tired… I should try to change that! But I use my sister’s straightener because I don’t have my own and she always gets mad at me…

I think I might buy myself a little straightener to do my bangs and such with. The Cosmotology students used them when doing my hair for the musical, and I think it would help lots. My hair isn’t very bad without straightening, but it’s mostly the bang part that is annoying. And I can still use it as a regular straightener for smaller sections (I hopt it will still go very hot and work well though!).

Blogging can take a lot out of you! Good night!

For °C-ute, I really like their new songs! I actually don’t remember them all that much, but I really liked the song named after the album, Akogare My STAR- it’s so catchy and fun sounding! I really want to cover it someday… And I will DEFINITELY cover Seishun Song by Maimi- I love it SO much; it sounds fun and just great! *__* I can’t remember the other songs off the top of my head, but I didn’t dislike them. I thought Airi’s pronunciation of “All my family” was cute.

Now, I haven’t really listened to anything out of H!P and bubbly anime songs in a while, so I am completely gushing at HANGRY&ANGRY’s album!!! I completely LOVED all of the songs, and I hope Rika and Yossie do more songs together, either in H&A or some future unit. I really liked Angelia, but all of the songs were amazing. I am so late in posting about this, but that’s how I feel.

And I’m starting a blog with my friends! It… has an interesting title, and the 3 of us are contributing to writing in it. Except I haven’t gotten the instructions on how to do so yet… ;-; Soon, though! Then I can write random things on life that people in real life will understand! Ahaha, anyways…

I also went to Starbucks today (I helped my uncle out at his work and dropped by after I was done) and got a Grande Orange, Mango and Banana Vivanno with Matcha (matcha is green tea powder; it turns the drink green! <3). It’s really thick, but I like the taste and it’s (seemingly) healthy. They put a whole banana in it (though mine wasn’t blended entirely…) and orange juice… and healthy stuff? I don’t know… But they have their “Pick of the Week” and I picked it up for a free song on iTunes. I took a listen, and it’s not a bad song, but I don’t think it’s my cup of tea. I remembered I picked up 2 from Starbucks almost a month ago, and redeemed them too. They’re all good~

But… I haven’t been singing or mixing in a while… ;-; When I woke this morning, one of my blankets (I sleep with two, one on top of the other for warmth) was on the floor and I was barely covered with the other one, so I was really cold. And then I had a doctor’s appointment, and when I wasn’t feeling restless around 9, we had to get up and get ready. I don’t like sleeping in, but I do and feel safe when my mom/parents are at home. And I know I don’t have to record… xD;;

I really want to be healthy! And active, and fit! I really think I will join Track at school (they have really persuasive/interesting recruitment posters up at school xD)! Except, I am also in the school’s play, and we have a crazy number of rehearsals in February and March… but I want to look good on stage. I want better skin too… How do you get pores smaller? ; A; My skin is pretty acne-free, but pores are my enemy ._.”

It’s really cold where I live, and I hope the weather clears up soon. My mom said that it was warm a few days ago, enough to get the roads and cars dirty (she washed her car a couple days ago too). I want warm (or pleasantly cool) weather! ; A; But I have a nice jacket, so it’s all good~

Tomorrow’s not a bad day. I finished my Science homework last class, so I’m good there. But Math. Oh, Math. I am like 8 math exercises behind the class. To be honest, that is actually NOT THAT BAD, because there are so many people who are way farther behind than me. And they aren’t worth marks, but the teacher prefers that they are handed in, so she can tell if we have any idea what we’re doing? And I have a quiz in Math tomorrow in preperation for the test on Wednesday! I always fail the quizzes but do really well on the tests. WHAT?! It’s so strange… But luckily, quizzes are worth no marks either. xD;; But I have to finish the test review that IS worth marks… ;-;

Tuesday is my Japanese written exam! It would only be the first part of the exam, but on the date of the second day (to write the second part of the exam), I have my piano exam, and have to write both parts on the same day. I am doing really well in that class, so I just have to review on things, but we’re getting a whole study period tomorrow! (And I can study during my piano lesson tomorrow night 8Db. My FINAL PIANO LESSON EVER! I am so excited, you have no idea. I am no Mano Erina, or Beethoven, and I am happy that I might be able to do something I actually like soon… whatever that may be.) I think I will study during my spare too…

Wednesday is my math test! It’s EVERYTHING that I have learned from the first day of school until now, and I am completely dreading it. I know my stuff decently (the older stuff) and trig, but there are some things that I don’t fully comprehend. And last time I asked my teacher for help, I was such a dumbass, because I asked her the day of the test at lunch (I had Math last slot) and she was SO angry at me. But I did really well on the test. xD;; She probably thinks I’m one of the smartest dumbasses ever. And I have a Poetry test in English- I feel like I’m walking in an exit-less maze when it comes to poems.

Thursday is the day of my piano exam! ;_; I seem to ALWAYS get stomach aches when I am there, waiting for my time with the examiner. I almost was late because of it. This year was… really half-assed because I wanted to quit, but no one would let me. If I finish this level, I will have my last high school level, though (but that’s only if I pass…). I quit figure skating this year too, so maybe they want to spread it out more? I want to take vocal lessons, but my dad is dead-set on getting this specific vocal coach. I don’t know if vocal lessons are just vocal lessons or a specific type (I am not interested in choir…), but I just want to take lessons from someone who knows what they are doing! I took lessons in Elementary/Junior High for a half year-year at this “music school”, and all we did was do warm-ups and sing a song; I could have easily done that on my own time.

And Thursday is my Geography test! Which I should study for. It will probably be moved forward a day or two because I won’t be at school all day Thursday.

Man, I feel SO whiny with this post, but it feels good to get some of it off my chest. T_T AND there’s 2 weeks until the deadline of Anime Idol ’08 by Desho and Keruri Aohoshi, and the duet I am doing with Aurora is… 5% started. I really should study and practive piano, and while I will (cram), I will probably waste time with my concert groupdub and reading of One Piece. That is my computer life.

I will talk about my audition:

I won’t be revealing the song I sang, unless for some strange and silly reason I pass the first audition round. O_O That would be CRAZY. I sang the song in one shot, and I was actually pretty happy with it. (That was my first time recording while standing up: I took a music stand (LOL) and then a kleenex box (LOLLL) and thing of burnable CDS (LOLx10) and stood my mic on it. I was able to adjust how high I needed the microphone, but if I accidentally nudged the stand, it would slip down (the stuff was actually happy and I applaud the music stand for not falling when left alone <3). I wore these headphones that cover your ears (Logitech USB kind) and printed out the lyrics (usually I sit at the computer and read off the computer while recording) and held it up while I sang. My head is strangely shaped, and I couldn’t use my hands to adjust the headphones on my head because they would half slip off, because the other hand held onto the pop filter which I bought for cheap and has a big butterfly clip that who knows where you clip on to.

Onto the actual audition: Were we supposed to sing live on camera? O_O;; Because… I was planning to, but then I read the “rules” on the auditioning page again, it talked about linking the url to the videos/SOUNDS. …Or maybe I’m screwed now because that was meant for the composers only? >_O;; (I can’t imagine dancers needing to send in audio, lol.) But if you think about it, singers would have to send in pictures of their full body and upper half, so they’ll know what you look like anyways (along with weight and height…). Right??? (I just linked to a YT video with sound pretty much)

So, the song I sang will not have the title revealed unless I someday feel like it… >_>;; BUT, I am proud of it- I don’t think I’ve ever sang such a good oneshot before. O_O I was actually picking through Yura Yura by Hearts Grow (one of the Naruto openings?), LOVE GUN by Aya Hirano and Ame no Furanai Hoshi de wa Aisenai Darou by Morning Musume. But then I chose a song I hadn’t even thought of once to use. It was weird, but it was like the perfect song. O_O But it’s not by an Avex artist, so I’m wondering if that will go over okay… I actually… don’t listen to Avex artists, really. >_<;; I have a few songs on my iPod, but not really. ;-; I feel really horrible, but my sister does have quite a few Japanese CDs that are by Avex artists, surprisingly (she isn’t gung-ho about Japanese stuff and shunned me when I tried to tell her about the audition). BUT, the first anime I saw and acknowledged as anime was Inuyasha, which had all(?) of its songs sung by Avex artists! 8D;;b

I hope it’s acceptable and I have my fingers crossed. >_<;;b But I think that may work against me because I sent in some pretty crappy pictures. O_O Like, I asked my mom to take a few pictures, but she loves me so much she didn’t want to tell me how bad I looked. I guess they were acceptable photos? .-. I hope… I left the song acapella (I was afraid I would screw up if I put it with music because I do something special to vocals when I mix with music), and while it doesn’t sound as cool, it still sounds ok. 8D;;b I hope I find out soon if I made it or not. If anyone else does, please let me know! *_*b

So… Hagiwara Mai got a haircut. Not new news, but I havne’t found many YouTube videos of it. Except this one where she eats an umeboshi. It’s c-ute.

And is Chisato trying to grow her hair out? Or maybe she just keeps putting off getting her hair cut? I think UFA wants her to keep short hair for a boyish look, but maybe if she styled her hair differently, longer hair would look nicer. BUT PLEASE NOT ANOTHER OOKINA STYLE.

Chisa, you’re very, very cute, but your hair stylist was a crackhead.

I totally loved her hair in Sakura Chirari, though! Sakura Chirari, Meguru Koi no Kisetsu, Tokaikko Junjou I all liked. After that… not so much.

But Okai Chisato is still my number #3 in °C-ute! <3 Now, UFA, give her more singing lines okthx

I’m not quite sure how to describe this, but do the girls in Hello! Project all sing rather throatily? Not with their chest voices, but through their throats… I was thinking this when watching the H!P Kids auditions and comparing them to now. I think Airi had a much fuller sound when she first auditioned and it’s just not as… great as it could/should(?) be. That probably sounds really rude, but I don’t wish it to be as still like their voices a lot ;A;

Ever since I came back from my band trip, I’ve been feeling rather sick… ._.;; I’ve recorded for some groupdubs, but the condition ofmy throat(?)/voice(?) hasn’t been as good as usual. (Random: I’m listening to my version of Natsu Doki Lipstick and it’s getting me pumped to year Maimi, Saki N. and Saki S.’ version at the battle concert *-*) Hopefully it will clear soon; being away for 3+ days has made me behind in recording o-o;;

While shopping with a friend during the band trip, I found out that she lost 20 pounds in one week. O_O I would have asked her to teach me, but she lost so much weight because she was sick for a week and only drank water. That was ALL. O_O Holy crap, I would probably DIE. She’s really very pretty though; if I hadn’t known her since grade 7 I probably wouldn’t have been able to tell that the girl she was then and now are the same. …Does it seem that I’m a vain person for the way I write…? >_O;;

Seishun Love Lunch makes me happily hungry xD~!

And I must say that Niigaki Risa is probably my favourite member of Morning Musume right now; she’s just plain awesome! Hopefully I’ll have time to rant more, but she’s just my number one. x) She’s very closely followed by JunJun, though I’m not sure who comes next… ._.;;?

My top favourite in C-ute would definitely be Maimi hands down; many reasons, if only it weren’t half past midnight xD. Though, I can probably name my favourites in order: Maimi, Erika, Chisato, Kanna, Airi, Mai, Saki. I really love/like them all, but it’s just a matter of… liking more. ^^;;

I’m not particularly familiar with Berryz Koubou, but from the sounds/personality of it, I really like Tokunaga Chinami and Tsuganaga Momoko. I like people with fun personalities~

I can’t wait to start singing some A&R~!!! Though I really wish for some voice lessons…Dx